Ok guys I have such great news! Please read for all that even care to read about this.
Over the past 5 months, as some of you may know, I had great conflict with my music. I came to a point where i was so upset by it, that i didnt even want to look at the piano. For some reason it gave me such stress, such insecurity, and feelings of hopelessness.
But i assure you all, that every single one of those feelings are gone! They're wiped out! After much though I have finally rearranged my concept of music, of life, of myself, as if I had reborn myself in a new and refreshing way.
So the new me is following a concept of always being productive in not only creating music, but listening to music, researching new styles of music, performing music, improvising to music, singing, directing, art, dancing, photography, every and any form of expression that i am interested in.
When i was about 13 years old, people noticed that i had a talent for music, and praised me insanely. I did not like the praise, since it altered my conception of music, and myself. I came to a point where i felt people loved my music so much (which was not so many, and the music is not even that great) that i was unwilling to create any other style, out of the fear of losing my own style. Its similar to how one would feel that if you learn anymore in school, that you would forget the stuff in the past. Yet who ever said you could not continue to learn the old stuff right!?! It had hit me only a couple of days ago, and i am refreshed.
I am beginning to see how my mind is opening up to old and new ideas, and to apply that to my own style of expression, or just to relive theirs.
So! What next then huh? A lot! I have already planned my life ahead 10 years from now. I have big goals, and i am already reaching them. You will see me more on this site, posting up music of mine. I hope to continue to be part of this wonderful community, and wish to learn as much as i can for as long as i live.
Talk to you all soon,